Did I follow my dreams?

In Memory of You Shilpa...I miss you

I am not used to writing blogs or posts . However this time there is something I wanted to convey.

I read about many tragic incidents in life. 9/11, 7/11,26/11 and many such incidents. Read about the trauma, fell sympathetic about the sufferings. Prayed in silence took part in marches, even donated my time and savings everywhere for the benefit of those who suffered. But never ever really lost someone close to it.

The Pune Blast came in a similar manner. Lot of media coverage and speculation and after a day or two life went on, unless I realized I have lost someone too. Someone called me to say about it and I rushed to find a copy of Times Of India. And too my shock it happened in reality. The blast claimed a very dear friend of mine.

She was a junior in BIT. She was in the first year when I was in the final year. I remember the first day I talked to her. She was standing outside the EEE class and when she saw me she came to me and said to me "Sir, when will Basu Sirs(Sougato) class get over". I never realized that line would mean so much. We got to know each other better. Vineet and I used to flirt with her and her friend Shreya so much. Everytime Shreya and She saw me they used to cry out loud "Sir sir sir" and all my friends used to make fun of me. But believe me I used to love the attention i gave them and they used to love mine. (I think so).

We used to meet quite often at canteen or IC(place where we had coffee) and she used to tell me all the gossip about things. About the guyz she liked, the girls she didn't like. We used to hit at each other too..We used to flirt so much that everyone would be shocked. We made plans of getting married, having kids, going on honeymoon.

Once we went to Madhuban to booze too. Not I am proud of but then it was fun. 3 of us boozed vodka and talked about lot of random stuff. We really got close where we really talked a lot about each others personal life.

then I passed out of BIT and we lost touch for some time. After a year or so we got connected again when she told me how much she missed me. We were talking again and were great friends. She had a boyfriend and she shared so much with me and so did I share some of my issues in life. We flirted, talked and things went on and off.

She got through Amdocs and then there were issues. I was guiding her all the while and finally she joined Nomura. I had promised her to take to Leopold once she was in Mumbai. We couldnt meet for long time. Then one day she finally came down to my campus. We went to soda for our last drink together and we had pizza in the group work room with some of my friends. And that was the last time I saw her. We chatted some times , talked over phone a few times but then I never realized she would be gone.

I regret not taking her to Leopold, not treating her to Jack Daniels that i promised too and not meeting her regularly though we lived so close. Maybe I was lazy or whatever but then I regret it. I regret not planning out our Goa trip that we wanted too.

I saw her mature so much and so quickly. Now all that remains about her is memories. We did not even click a single picture together.

The only time in life is now. Everything is uncertain. So when there is time we should make the most out of it. Tell people that you love them or like them when they are around you and never wait for the next moment. Wrap life in every moment and live life every moment.

I will always miss you Shilpa, the memories of you will be beautifully written in my life.I will still miss the words "Sir Sir Sir" all my life.